• Child Health Nursing Research
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• 제2권1호
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• pp.93-111
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• 1996

The purpose of the study is to identify the lived experience of mothers who have children with cerebral palsy in order to understand their agony. Moreover, the result of study was to find some nursing intervention for disabled children and their mothers. For this purpose, ten mothers who are willing to cooperate with this research were selected at random from those who have children with the cerebral palsy, currently using the municipal facilities for the handicapped with cerebral malfunction. Data collection was done from October 4, 1994 th December 31, 1994. The data were collected by asking the mothers mentioned above with some unstructured open-ended questions, recorded on the tapes with permission by the interviewee in order to prevent missing of the interviewed contents. These collected data have been substantiated and properly analyzed on the basis of phenomenological approach initiated by Colaizzi's method. The results and validity are proved to be credible by means of the individual checking of the interviewed mothers. The results of this study are as follows : 1. When the mother is first informed of the diagnosis of cerebral palsy on her child, she usually misses the crucial timing needed for proper treatment of the child's disorder because she is notified through the doctor's indifference and his apparently inactive, matter-of-fact attitude. At first she suspects the doctor's diagnosis and tries to attribute it to the unknown cause from a certain genetic problem and then she quickly wants to deny the whole situation that her child is really suffering from the cerebral palsy. The reality is too much for her to accept as it is and she would not believe her child is abnormal. Therefore, she even attempts depend on the power of God for its solution. 2. The mother, who goes thorough this kind of uncommon experiences, is totally devoted to the treatment and care of the child and completely ignores her own life and happiness. At the same time, she feels sorry for her other normal children she believes having not enough care and concern. Also, she feels sorry for the sick child when the child's brothers or sisters show special concern for the patient out of sympathy. It is sorry and not satisfied for her that the child is growing with abnormality and neighbor other around have inappropriate attitudes. Likewise, she is discontent with her husband's lack of concern about the child's treatment. She believes that the health care system in this society isn't fulfilling its due purpose. In the state of her utmost distress and anxiety, she always feels the need of competent consultants, and is angry about that her child is treated as an abnormal being, she is trying to hide the child from other people and to make him or her disappear, if possible. Although she doesn't have harmonious relation with her husband, she id happy when he shows his affection for the child and she feels relieved and thankful when the relatives don't mention about the child's condition Since the child's overall status of health is continuously in unstable conditions, requiring her all-time readiness for an emergency, she feels guilty of her child's illness toward the fEmily members as if it was her own fault to have borne such an abnormal child and she feels responsible for the child morally and financially if necessary Because her life is centered on taking care of the child, she cannot afford to enjoy her own life and happiness. She is a lonely mother, fatigued, with no proper relationship with other people around her. With this sense of guilt and responsibility as a mother of an unusual disease, she has no choice but to grieve her destiny from which she is not allowed to escape. 3. Nevertheless, the mother with the child suffering from the cerebral palsy does not easily give up the hope of getting her child cured and she believes that in the long run, though slower than hoped, her abnormal son or daughter will be eventually cured to become a normal sibling someday. This kind of hope is sustained by the mother's strong faith coming from observing the progress of other similar children getting better. Sometimes she is encouraged to have this faith by other mothers who share the same painful experiences, believing that her child will improve even more rapidly than others with the same palsy. Full of hope, she painstakingly waits for the child's healing. Moreover, she plans to have another child. she thinks that the patient child's brothers and sisters only can truly understand and look after the patients. However, when she notices that the progress of other children under the treatment does not look so hopeful, she is distressed by the thoughts that her child may never get well. Too, she is worried that the patient's brother or sister will be born as the same invalid with the cerebral disease. She is discouraged to have another baby as much as she is encouraged to. She is also troubled by the thought that in case she has another baby, she will have to be forced. to neglect the patient child, especially when she does have an extra hand or some reliable person to help her with taking care of the patient.

• 심성연구
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• 제38권1호
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• pp.112-160
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• 2023

본 연구는, 한국민담 "하늘에서 빌려온 복"을 인간 심성이 표현된 자료로서 분석심리학적 입장에서 살피면서 인간 심성의 이해에 한층 더 다가가 보고자 하는 하나의 시도이다. 이로부터, 우리의 마음 깊은 곳에서는 새로운 차원의 의식성을 기획하고 실현하고자 하는 근원적 활동이 늘 펼쳐지고 있다는 것을 다시금 확인해 볼 수 있었다. 또한, 새로운 의식성을 이루게 될 심적 요소들이 무의식에서 어떻게 준비되며 어떻게 의식으로 통합되어 가는지, 나아가, 그 과정의 진행과 완성을 위해 필요한 것은 무엇인지에 관한 실마리를 얻을 수 있었다. 이야기는, 주인공 나무꾼이 가난에서 벗어나고자 두 배 많은 나뭇짐을 마련해 오기 시작하는 데서 시작한다. 그런데, 새로 구해온 짐은 하룻밤이 지나면 사라지고 만다. 이에 나무꾼은 의문을 품고 짐이 어디로 사라지는 것인지를 추적하려 하고, 그러다 뜻하지 않게 하늘 여행을 하게 되며, 마침내, 그간 짐을 거두어 간 게 하늘이라는 것, 그 이유는 그에게 허락된 복 분량이 한 짐뿐이기 때문이라는 것을 깨닫게 된다. 아울러, 태어나지 않은 어떤 이의 큰 복을 확인하고는, 그 복을, 장차 원래 주인에게 돌려주는 조건으로 빌려오게 된다. 이후의 이야기는, 나무꾼이 일련의 새로운 계기들을 만나면서 부농이 되는 과정, 마침내 복 주인이 등장하여 약속된 때에 복을 돌려주는 사건을 거쳐, 최종적인 대반전의 창조적 결말로 이어지게 된다. 전체 서사는, 복 주인에게 복이 온전히 이양된 후에 열리게 될 새로운 삶의 지평, 즉, 진화된 새로운 의식성의 실현을 목적하고 진행되는 일련의 심적 사건으로 이해될 만했다. 여기서 주인공 나무꾼은, 변화가 필요한 낡은 의식으로, 동시에, 새로운 의식성의 실현을 준비하며 장차 거기에 참여하게 될 심적 요소로, 이해해 볼 수 있었다. 그런 가운데, 주인공에게 일어났던 일련의 사건과 변화들은, 새롭게 등장할 의식성이 어떤 것인지에 대한 점층적·구체적 예고로 이해해 볼 수 있었다. 주인공은 이야기의 흐름 속에서 자신의 역할을 잘 수행해간다. 그러나 그런 그도, 복을 이양해야 하는 결정적 순간이 다가오자, 갈등과 고민이 깊어진다. 이는 새로운 의식성의 실현을 위한 마지막 과정의 어려움을 잘 시사해 준다. 특기할 것은, 이야기 속의 모든 심적 사건이 이 마지막 지점에 수렴되고 있었다는 점, 아울러, 문제의 해결이 결국은, 주인공이 자신이 누리고 있는 모든 걸다 내려놓고 하늘의 뜻에 온전히 따르는 순간 일어나고 있었다는 점이었다. 민담은, 새로운 의식성의 도래에는 그것에 참여하며 경험을 하게 될 이의 몫이 있음을, 그리고 이 몫은 그 전체 과정을 기획하고 진행해 온 정신 심층의 중심에 온전히 순응하는 것임을, 잘 시사해 주고 있었다. 그때 비로소 체험 주체가 그 최종 열매에 참여할 수 있게 되는 것이었다. 만약 체험 주체가 이에 반해 중간 단계의 어느 성과에 집착하며 머무르고자 한다면, 무의식은 최종 목적지를 향해 또 다른 험난한 과정을 전개할 수 있음을, 이는, 한 개인에서든 사회에서든, 새로운 차원의 의식성과 삶이 요청되는 곳에서라면 늘 적용되는 것임을, 본 민담은 아울러 시사해 주고 있었다.